Post nr 3. Overcome emptiness

I promise, after twenty posts i start with better titles
My 20 post rule. Should i write every day one, so it takes me almost month to accomplish it. Or should i write continuously all the twenty posts to get over with it. Guess im gonna do it spontaneously.
I wonder if other blogger feel mostly full of thoughts or many times completely blank.
Right now i feel blank, zero, nothing. So does it really takes only three small posts to fill all my thoughts on paper? Hope not. Guess the art is something else, just have to figure it out. I just don't want do blog how i went to shop to buy milk, about my cat or what did i eat today. No, its ok, you can do it. Really, guess there is bunch of people who like to read it, at least more than some wanderer empty posts. I just stick to my road, wherever it takes me.
Take off the barrages.
Same time im writing here, im also reading other bloggers blogs how to blog. So many blogs :). Got a new good advice. When you write a blog don't think about writing correctly. Just think that over your desk is sitting someone with who you are speaking to. It makes sence to me. Makes it bit easier to write here. Guess the main art is opening up yourself. It takes time i can see now. The ideas and focus comes later.
I believe in myself
I do. I have two things im proud of, things i tried many times i could not achive. First i quit smoking for 6 months now. And i went to gym, also go there for 6 months now.  So i trust myself i can keep writing. Force myself and keep on track. Why? It teaches me lot. Focus, stability, writing skills, expression skills and so on. Even if you dont read or comment, im still growing :)
This is the end of big 3.

Time for my second post. 12MP

Ok, its time for my second post. Yesterday night i posted my first little post. Then i woke up, with fear opened my blog site to see hundreds of comments how pointless my thoughts are and why did i even wasted my time coming here. Well i was ready for this. But... no comments at all, no views also. Nothing. I prepared myself for this, and for what? For emptiness. Then i realised, what is worse than negative feedback? No feedback at all. Well, then i have to follow my path and write 20 first blogs. Actually this wasnt my idea. I´m sorry not to remember the bloggers name, she was one girl. But there was blog where one lady mentioned tips for beginner bloggers, and one tip was to write 20 blogs. I took only one suggestion and couldn't even follow this one correctly. Cause she said not to publish the first 20, but i did. Not because i thought someone will want to read, but cause i accidentally published it. And now i don't want to break chain. To be honest its kinda refreshing to write your thoughts to the world. Even if anybody wont read, cause the can. Yesterday i pick also one topic, maybe i should keep the tradition and pick today as well. OK. Firs idea which comes to my mind is something like that: we pay for too fast internet or buy too good quality camera phone. Let me explain what i mean.

Technology evolves, i know, and its good. I like technology, new and better things. Really i do. But sometimes i catch myself thinking watching my phone. Do i really need 12MP camera on my phone? No i don't. I know i dont. I did little research and found out that maximum camera resolution for me is 4,5MP. And its same for majority of people. But still few months ago when i was in shop buying new phone, the 12MP was one big argument to purchase this phone. I would never bought the phone if it had 4,5MP camera. So, i know im fool, but im still fool. It's not about the megapixels. No. Its about buying very fast and expensive computer to surf web and make excel sheets. Just to feel good. We could manage excellently 5 times slower and cheaper computer. Here im also guilty. Done it. Gone do it again, i guess. I believe im not alone in this. I know it's not catastrophic problem, but my life would be pretty much same good if wouldn't buy too fast too big or too strong things. Would it?

My first blog. Number 1

This is my first blog. Its double hard, because i have to write it in english. But i have to start if i want to know how it is, and is it for me. I have no exact idea which category im gonna choose, but well see. Beginning is hard, words come hard. If i was just thinking about blogging, there seemd so many ideas flowing in my head that i could write a book. Meanwhile writing here i got an idea: i write 20 blogs here. These must be normal length, not book, not two sentences, but normal length. It should make my hand white, warm or how they say.  One reason i want to write blogs is grow a harder skin on me. It seems when people write something, then there is punch of people who looks every way to criticise others. Id like to get there, when i read these comments and my eyes wont even blink and i dont even want to say something back to them. But the main reason is same as you all -write something which matters.  Like smoking
I was able to quit smoking after 15 years of lighting these white sticks. I have tried it many times before, but no luck then. Reason im writing this is this time i did something differently. Did something actually worked. Mostly everybody are saying something like that: smoking can kill you or you smell bad or whatever like that negative things. Soon we become immune to this talk. Our habit is too strong and we dont listen these things anymore. They but ugly pictures on top of cigaret pack. These all wont work. Didnt work for me also. These are all negative emotions. What is bigger than negative emotion? Opposite. Positive emotion. When you have big motivation. When you are motivated, and you really believe it. Like when you where kid and knew you will get computer game under christmas tree if you are good. It was your dream game, and being good was realistic, you where motivated. This time quitting cigarette i was also motivated. i still am. 6 months no cigarettes. This time i did not think about negative things. I did opposite. I took white paper, and pencil. Yep, no PC. These kind of things i like to do old fashioned way. And i wrote all the positive things i could think of. All the positive things i get when i quit smoking. I got lot of them. It made me feel good. I wanted all these things. Some more some less, but i felt motivated. This time i did not think that i have to quit smoking. This time i thought i want to quit smoking. This is the big differents. Anti-smoke ad makers should also think about that. Maybe they should also change way from fear to motivation? Well, for me it worked. And i feel good.