My first blog. Number 1

This is my first blog. Its double hard, because i have to write it in english. But i have to start if i want to know how it is, and is it for me. I have no exact idea which category im gonna choose, but well see. Beginning is hard, words come hard. If i was just thinking about blogging, there seemd so many ideas flowing in my head that i could write a book. Meanwhile writing here i got an idea: i write 20 blogs here. These must be normal length, not book, not two sentences, but normal length. It should make my hand white, warm or how they say.  One reason i want to write blogs is grow a harder skin on me. It seems when people write something, then there is punch of people who looks every way to criticise others. Id like to get there, when i read these comments and my eyes wont even blink and i dont even want to say something back to them. But the main reason is same as you all -write something which matters.  Like smoking
I was able to quit smoking after 15 years of lighting these white sticks. I have tried it many times before, but no luck then. Reason im writing this is this time i did something differently. Did something actually worked. Mostly everybody are saying something like that: smoking can kill you or you smell bad or whatever like that negative things. Soon we become immune to this talk. Our habit is too strong and we dont listen these things anymore. They but ugly pictures on top of cigaret pack. These all wont work. Didnt work for me also. These are all negative emotions. What is bigger than negative emotion? Opposite. Positive emotion. When you have big motivation. When you are motivated, and you really believe it. Like when you where kid and knew you will get computer game under christmas tree if you are good. It was your dream game, and being good was realistic, you where motivated. This time quitting cigarette i was also motivated. i still am. 6 months no cigarettes. This time i did not think about negative things. I did opposite. I took white paper, and pencil. Yep, no PC. These kind of things i like to do old fashioned way. And i wrote all the positive things i could think of. All the positive things i get when i quit smoking. I got lot of them. It made me feel good. I wanted all these things. Some more some less, but i felt motivated. This time i did not think that i have to quit smoking. This time i thought i want to quit smoking. This is the big differents. Anti-smoke ad makers should also think about that. Maybe they should also change way from fear to motivation? Well, for me it worked. And i feel good.